Pixie Dust

Walt Disney once said..

‘A person should set his goals as early as he can and devote all his energy and talent to getting there.’

God knows how eager I am now to channel my energy to the thing that I want to do. But the problem is, I do not know what I really want.

There are times you just want to pause the moment simply because you don’t want such beautiful feeling to end casually. And upon doing so, it doesn’t matter anymore if the world leaves you behind because belongingness is less important now than self-satisfaction.

Let him go, let them go.

‘Knowing’ isn’t always enough.

Sometimes you have to do something about what you know and not just let that idea live rent-free in your mind.

Sunset a la Boracay | 042812

Me, Myself and I.

I think it’s about time I should learn to take full responsibility of my own ‘happy hour’ instead of leaving it in the hands of my friends. Right now I can truly say that we have our own agenda and I may not see them as often as I wish I could. Unlike before that we’re all kids in search of what to do with our lives that we can meet anytime and be carefree with our schedules. Now, it’s going to be different because almost all has stable jobs already and some will have to religiously attend to their studies. They cannot give much time to meet-ups anymore. Of course no one wants to interfere with each one’s priority. And it’s depressing. Maybe I’m over analyzing things right now. Because obviously we are not thousand miles apart, we can still do quick lunches or dinners. But really, I think I need to have my own world too, take time to become independent and not expect the same old us anymore (when it comes to schedules only). Because it’s kind of scary and unfair to learn that you’re the only one left in the zone while everyone else’s busy focusing in their own lives.

As hard as having tan lines.

Dealing with you is as easy as getting tan lines but as hard as getting rid of those as well. It will just be a matter of two weeks before I can get back to a healthy and even skin again. There will be slight hurt at the beginning but it’s okay, it will just signal the start. There will be petty sloughing of skin but again it’s okay because it’s part of the process. Will whole-heartedly accept every step because eventually I am going to be fine and restored.

Naglayag | Batangas Port | 042712

Rock my world into the sunlight | Boracay | 042812

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And finally, I think I can whole-heartedly sing the first two lines of the 2nd verse.

Parang negosyo lang yan.

May-ari ka ng shoe store. Isang araw, may customer na dumating sa tindahan mo, unang customer pagpasok ng linggo, tumingin ng school shoes. Bilang isang negosyante, sinipat mo yung tao kung gaano ba kalaki ang porsyento na nangangailangan siya ng sapatos. Tinignan mo ang postura, maaari ngang may salapi ito kaya naman mukhang bibili. Tinignan mo yung sapatos, maayos at maganda pa. Napanghinaan ka ng loob ng kaunti dahil nakita mong maayos pa ang sapatos niya, at baka naisipan lang niya tumingin. Ngunit napangiti ka nang lumapit ang customer sa iyo hawak-hawak ang isa sa mga bagong style ng sapatos na binebenta mo. Tinanong ka niya, ‘may size 9 po ba kayo nito?’ kalamado mo itong sinagot, ‘Mukhang meron pa po, tignan po naten’ sabay kuha ng sapatos para tignan ang stock number.

Makalipas ang halos 2 minutong pagpapahintay sa customer, bumalik kang bitbit ang size 9. Iniabot ito sa customer at excited siyang kinuha ito para sukatin. Habang sinusuot niya ang sapatos, tumatakbo na ang umaasang isip mo na sana magustuhan niya, sana sakto ang sukat sakanya, sana ito na ang hinahanap niya. Hindi ka nga nagkamali, sinukat niya ang pares ng sapatos, tumayo siya sa kinauupuan at nilakadlakad niya ito. Habang nilalakad, sinasabi niya sayo ang mga katangiang nagustuhan niya: ‘ang gaan ilakad, sakto sa paa ko, bago pa yung istilo, gusto ko ‘to!!’. Gawa ng mga salitang binitawan niya, nabuo ang loob mong kukunin na niya ang sapatos, sinagot mo yung customer ng mga pang-engganyong salita, ‘Nako Sir, isa po yan sa mga new arrivals namin, leather po talaga siya kaya matibay at di basta-basta bibigay’. Napangiti muli ang customer at muling nilakad ito ng isa pang ikot. Ngunit nagulat ka ng hubarin niya ito at ibalik sayo at sinabing ‘sige balikan ko po, gusto ko na siya’. Sa kabila ng pagkadismaya, masaya ka kasi may binitiwang salita yung customer. Lumabas yung customer ng tindahan. Niligpit mo yung sapatos.

Buong araw mong itinabi yung size 9, sa pag-aakalang babalikan niya rin ito sa mismong araw. Hanggang umabot na ng gabi, magsasara ka na. Nawala na yung pag-asang bibilhin niya yung sapatos. Biglang nasipat mo sa labas ng tindahan yung pamilyar na tao, siya nga! Yung customer kanina! Sumaya ka ng kaunti. Ngunit hindi siya dumiretso sa tindahan mo, sa halip, doon siya sa kaharap mong tindahan pumasok. Makalipas ang 5 minuto, lumabas yung customer na bitbit ang isang malaking paper bag, laman ang sapatos nung ibang tindahan.

Napatingin ka na lang sa itinabi mong stock ng sapatos na dapat sana para sakanya. Napa-iling ka na lang at nanghinayang.

Medyo natanong mo rin sa sarili mong, ‘nagkulang ba ako sa sales talk? Ano kayang nagustuhan niya sa sapatos na iyon na wala sa sapatos na binebenta ko?’

Mapapaisip ka rin na tutal, mukhang bago pa naman yung sapatos niya, sana hindi na lang siya bumili ng bago, sana nag-stick na lang siya dun sa luma. Kasi kung bago din lang, bakit hindi pa sayo kumuha.

O kaya bat mo pa nalamang kumuha siya ng bago pwede namang hindi mo malaman ee.

Sa mga ganitong pagkakataon, wala ka na magagawa kundi manghinayang, tas kuhanan mo na lang ng leksyon yung nangyare para sa susunod mong customer, mas kaaya-ayang sales talk na gagawin mo.

Maging masaya ka na lang na may bago na siya at naka-usad na siya mula doon sa luma.

Tas tanggapin mo na lang na sa negosyo, hindi lang ikaw… marami kang kaagaw. Marami.

Discipline.

100-count. 1cup. No extra. 2meals. Water therapy. Sideward swing. 8hours. Focus.

Just another Tinker Thought

It’s amazing how God assigns someone na you’ll spend the rest of yer life with. Pero what happens dun sa someone na yun pag pinangunahan mo si God? Yung sobrang in love ka na akala mo siya na talaga si Mr./Ms. Right at talagang excited ka ata magpakasal pero sa wrong person pala? What will happen dun sa naka-assign sayo? Will God revise his story o will he forever remain in search for you? Kaya ba may mga matatandang dalaga o binata? Sila na ba yung mga yun? Ehe

Wala lung. Kung anu-ano naiisip ko, bagong gising kasi ehe sarry.